Letting it go

Things don't always go the way we plan, do they? The relationship you're in, it's still there. Of course it is. It's not like you've been dumped. But it's just, not quite what it was. There's nothing specific, nothing precisely there that points out what the problem is, you just know that it's there.

It used to be that you were so close that you could almost read each others' minds. That intense emotional connection. Sex was hot, and you couldn't keep each others hands off. Then it started dropping off, and it was for reasons that were valid, sure it was. Work was stressful. There were people to be spending time with, and it would be good if you spent some time with your friends too. Maybe they just need a little space, or there's some sort of lifestyle change they're interested in.

Then maybe you get dumped. Or maybe you don't, and you have them pulling away, putting up walls, distancing themselves and making themselves isolated while you wonder what you've done wrong. Over and over, while you have no idea what might have gone astray. The excuses are there. "I want to go out with (x) tonight." "We'll talk later." "I'm working late/early/overtime."

It doesn't really matter what rationalizations are being given, the end result is the same. One foot is halfway out the door, and the ship has sailed. It's just a matter of time, until they admit to themselves that if they're not interested in sexual and emotional intimacy with you, then they're no longer involved with the relationship with you.

Whether or not you're going to be a good friend, a fond memory, or just someone they used to know? You're still going to be the past, because it's going to be...over.