Behold, the invisible person

It's funny, and it probably makes me a somewhat inattentive person that I've been both busy and sick recently, and didn't notice the now supposedly-invisible person who vanished from my life. Not just my life though. Once I noticed the absence, and truth be told, I have no idea how long she'd been missing before I saw the removal from my Facebook and Myspace, and then actually actively went to check for blogs and the twitter site to see what I might come up with.

Turns out that not only did I get deleted, so did everyone associated with me. Seems a little petty and childish, since I'm not even certain what it was that I did, and I know for damned sure nobody else did anything to warrant the removal, with the exception of >gasp< being my friend. The horror. Blasphemy. I know, right? Obviously, I missed something, somewhere.

So, I did a little poking around, since, well, I have that annoying skillset to be able to do such things. The trouble with dropping off into the ether, in an online world, is that it's actually not all that simple. Well, that's untrue.

It's very easy to drop into the ether, and have a completely hidden invisible place to voice your thoughts, and to lock down your profiles and your privacy. But you can't really do that and still keep all your things linked to your own personal things, in any way. People who like to have sycophants and be fussed over rarely manage to drop off the radar.

I freely admit that I have multiple accounts, that I use for multiple purposes. Very few of them are linked to each other, in any capacity. There would be no point. On the one account I have that has nothing that relates in any way to my Controversy account, I use it, I keep it, and I run it, with absolutely nothing that would refer to myself in any form. Which is why I feel free to write there, with no one realizing that it's me. My other blog accounts? I know there are a handful of people who know I write on those periodically. I can't necessarily finger which people who read them, but I know they do, and that's enough that more often than not, I write bullshit on those pages, just so I can screw with their heads occasionally. If no one will admit to reading what's being written, then I feel free to concoct the most amazing things on those pages. Fiction, at its best. Sometimes, people deserve what they get for not telling the truth when asked.

Where was I going with this? Oh, yes. Invisible people, and finding it odd to have been removed from someone's life with no provocation, without so much as a phone call, and then being somewhat amused to watch multiple blogs go online, while the main one goes down, in the hope of...what, exactly? Hiding from the world? From specific people? Trust that if I can see the secondary ones, gods know that chances are everyone else can too, as my ninja skills aren't all that tech savvy. Decent but not spectacular.

Whatever happened to simply writing in a paper journal? Or keeping .doc files or .txt files on your personal PC if you wanted to keep a journal? Why does everything need to be blogged? Nobody can use things against you if you just keep a damned diary. You still get to write out your feelings.

I wonder, sometimes, if people who read this truly believe that I write everything that goes through my mind. If I post everything up here for public consumption. The answer to that, my readers? It's no, I don't. I have private thoughts, and those thoughts remain mine, and private. What goes here, goes here by choice. I know better than to give fodder to the masses, to be used against me just because I'm not smart enough to keep some thoughts to myself. That'd be insane. I like getting feedback from a lot of my thoughts. Running some ideas out through the public domain, and seeing what some people think of it. But when it matters, personally, to me? I keep my own counsel. I'm not going to post up something that can do me injury, and leave myself open to attack. That would be foolish. The world doesn't need to know some things.

And if I truly, honestly just need to vent out some things, in a forum where I need feedback but can't afford to have people who personally know me getting wind of it? There are places to post that, anonymously, on the 'net. But I certainly wouldn't do that on my mainstream blog. People know me here, and I live in a small town, where people would talk about me all over.

I just don't get it. No one is invisible. However much they might want to be, no one is invisible. Life doesn't work that way. And if you're going to put your private life online to the world, you can expect repercussions, and people to talk. That's how things work. Social networking has descended onto society, and that's the way things work in today's world. It's like a convoluted game of yesteryear's "telephone game". Come to think of it, I never much liked that either. I must be getting old.

But with advances in technology comes the way things progress, and the society we live in, and that includes the internet, and sites like Facebook and Myspace and the way people interact and behave. Being invisible and dropping out of sight is virtually impossible, unless you know how to do it, or are completely prepared to do it in a full-scale and isolated manner. And most people aren't.

Posting that you're going to go into hiding, is sort of oxymoronic at best. And at all it does, is scream that you're putting in a huge bid for attention. Well, it got attention. But I doubt highly that it was the type you were looking for.