Like something stitched together, reminiscent of a tapestry
Your absence is noted in everything I do
The threads of fate that wove my tapestry
The pieces spun together to make up my life
For better or worse, those pieces remain
But each day, the threads grow longer
New additions to the tapestry are added
The new threads change my life
The pieces change the whole
Different stitches, a different whole
I note the absence, I see the whole, I watch the threads

Each thread from my past remains
Each time a thread was sundered
Additions were woven in to begin anew
A new frame of life
New pieces, tied with the old, to change the whole

The absences have gone through me
New and brilliant colors have been woven in
I have not forgotten, where the fading threads have been sundered
Fates threads simply made new patterns

everytime i try to go
i fail
please forgive me
this weakness causes me pain
and it's draining me
and i can't sleep
and i can't think
and no matter what i do
i just can't keep going
please
please forgive me
everytime i try to go
i fail
please forgive me
this weakness causes me pain
and it's draining me
i can still see all those things
the way the light caught your eyes
the way it felt to be in your arms
the memories are crushing me
i'm spinning
i'm drowning
everytime i try to go
i fail
please forgive me
this weakness causes me pain
and it's draining me
and it's over
when will it finally be over

Goodbye my friend/lover

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let them frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer and when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the mother of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.


Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.


--not written by me--
--author unknown--

my heart and thoughts are mine to keep
when i'm awake and while i sleep
nothing you do, nothing you say
will cause me to give those thoughts away
some things are better left unsaid
those things you seek are best left unread
i seek nothing more than what i claim
i ask of you nothing, i feel no shame
i know the risks, i know the rules
i know the game, i'm not a fool
don't try to change me
don't ask me to lie
let me have my fun
then let me say goodbye

heart knives...

Her callous unconcern twists a knife in your heart
And you bleed
You fall
And my heart breaks
And I try to catch you
I attempt to patch the pieces
Repairing what I can
Soothing what I cannot
Waiting and watching
You heart is safer here...

chaos
screaming
tearing
aching
breaking
spinning
round and round
tortured
thinking
hurting
crying
broken
battered
left behind

and every time less words are spoken
with every instance less is said
with every passing breath a heart is broken
with every whisper emotions felt are dead

in time those things i thought i heard will silence
with time those feelings will desist
lost thoughts to turn away from violence
the emotional overload easy to resist

things can return to level ground
terrain regained with every brick
confidence gained with armor bound
strength bolstered again with old tricks